these boxes or packets
we call transitional
            just kill me
all the missed moments
of peace and of purpose
the terrible effect
of going away or toward
    fills me w/ loss
from the hours spent
chained to loss
and gain
driving the body
      by way
of the brain
the make more,
spend less,
get sell buy oh yes
and my baby wanted blankets
and I wanted to wander
        to let
my blissful distraction
empty my pockets